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Character Name: Dean Winchester
Canon: Supernatural
Canon Point: 5x04 "The End" - Dean is taken from an alternate timeline to his original counterpart, as seen in this episode, where his brother said yes to Lucifer and he leads the resistance against an apocalypse shaped as the Croatoan virus to 'cleanse' the earth and make way for Lucifer's new world. He is a colder, harder, meaner version of his past self, broken and twisted into something that resembles the darkest parts of his inner core.

In-Game Tattoo Placement: Back of his neck [ tattoo ]
Current Health/Status: Alive, taken just before he finds Lucifer to have the final show down.
Age: 35
Species: Human
Inventory: Full game inventory here
Dream Guide: Angus the Liger 1 | 2
Address: 301 Clover Lane
Permissions & Content Warnings: here

History: General & Alternate Timeline specific (1) & (2)

Personality on Arrival:

What's left of you when everything you hold dear is taken away from you and guilt twists you into something your past self wouldn't recognize? He's lost his mother, his father and his brother. There's nothing left but a world he was instrumental in bringing about the slow, painful destruction of.

Dean Winchester used to be a good man; a righteous man. He used to know what it was to feel compassion and love and empathy. And then his world shifted; his brother Sam (the one person in the world he relied on to keep fighting the good fight) finally said yes to becoming Lucifer's vessel, and Dean hasn't stopped trying to end it all since. Somewhere along the way he's buried the thought that he never used to be an "end justifies the means" kind of man. And now he is.

Where loyalty-to-a-fault and dedication to protecting people from things that go bump in the night used to drive him, Dean is obsessed with surviving long enough to end an apocalypse he and his brother started. He justifies the cost of human life in the war he's fighting by doggedly sticking to seeing this through with grim determination - the apocalypse must end and he'll be the one to end it. He's a ruthless killer, both willing and able to deliver death to anybody he judges to be either an enemy or a risk to his resistance operation without hesitation. If he has to, he will kill or sacrifice his own people - people he used to regard as friends - in order to further his own agenda. If half the world has to die in order for there to be a world left, he'd take that result. Any shades of gray he might have developed in the past have separated out into a very black or white outlook. You're either with him or you're against him, and if you're against him, he will end you.

In his opinion, everybody in the resistance camp he leads knows what they signed up to and he takes that as permission to use them in whatever way he sees fit. People are either useful or they're not and, if they're not, Dean's not interested. His own obsession with killing Lucifer is left completely unchecked and without limits, and anybody who may have been close to him personally in the past has little to no influence over him now. Where previously he's always had somebody to balance out the extremes in his personality, now he refuses to allow anybody to insert themselves into that role out of fear that they'd try to change his mind and he'd have to do something he doesn't want to do. Despite the outward impression of being in control he wants to portray, inside he's dangerously unbalanced. He's tipped the scales in favor of getting the job done and knows there's no way back out again, even if on some level he hates what he's become.

To say that Dean simply doesn't care about the wellbeing of the people in his camp is too simplistic for how he feels. It's... complicated. Does he have respect for human life? Yes. Does he continue to shoulder the responsibility for keeping the people in his camp safe? As their leader he knows it's his duty, welcome or not. But that respect is no longer enough to eclipse the need to wipe Lucifer off the face of the planet. He's consistently driving towards the end game but has lost sight of why he's doing it beyond a twisted type of atonement and deep-seated need for revenge.

His relationship with the fallen angel, Castiel, is a particular thorn in his side. Deep down, Dean understands that he's to blame for the powerless, drug-fueled hippy that's been left in place of a formerly powerful angel and as such he allows Castiel to remain part of the camp. But the truth of the matter is that Castiel has become yet another weight of responsibility from a past littered with mistakes to shoulder. Dean resents it and while his guilt over it still exists in some form, it's something he's buried deeply to focus on the task at hand.

He's a highly-trained soldier, never far from violence and fighting to win the war against Lucifer by any means necessary. This includes resorting to torture, a skill he picked up during his 40-year stint in Hell. He's colder and more disassociated from the parts of himself that were formerly his most redeeming qualities. In their place, a tactical, driven leader willing to do anything to fix what he knows he broke.

Co-dependency used to figure heavily into Dean's very existence, but with Sam's betrayal and the harsh reality of a world afflicted with the Croatoan virus, he knows better now. He's hell-bent on killing Lucifer and, if his brother is still alive inside his Lucifer-inhabited body, he's a necessary sacrifice to the cause. Trying to save Sam is a possibility he stopped considering a long time ago. He relies on nobody but himself, and trusting other people is something that's firmly been relegated to the past. He's learned the hard way that putting his trust in anybody else results in things far worse than casual disappointment, no matter how much you love them and how quickly you'd be ready to die for them. He won't allow himself to be distracted from the cause he vehemently aligns himself to, and this makes him verging on emotionally impenetrable to anybody wanting more from him than direction and dogged leadership. He doesn't have time to allow himself anything remotely resembling positive, deeply-emotional personal relationships and casual, utterly base instinct sex is the closest he allows himself to connecting with other people. Keeping everybody at arm's length is, in his eyes, better for everyone.

Driving his core personality is a potent combination of repressed guilt and self-loathing, wrapped up in acute, self-inflicted loneliness. His penchant for joking around has buckled under the weight of his responsibilities, and he feels like he can't waste his time on focusing on anything outside of his mission. Humor is something he used to employ as a self-defence mechanism, and now the majority of what he has at his disposal is anger and contempt. A rage that burns deep and that, if he's honest, he doesn't want to or is capable of snuffing out. He needs that anger to keep him going, to keep him getting up and continuing to meet his enemies on whatever field of battle that he needs to. He's a realist, grimly aware of and facing into his current situation, and pragmatism features heavily into how he conducts himself on a day-by-day basis. His tactical skills have been honed over years of needing to stay alive, but he acts fast and without mercy in the moment.

Having met a past version of himself from the year 2009, his judgement and reaction is mostly framed by disbelief and condescension. He considers his past self foolish and short-sighted for refusing to say yes to becoming the vessel for the archangel Michael. He's angry at his past self for turning down the opportunity to put a stop to this version of the future, where the human race is being unrelentingly zombiefied by the Croatoan virus and the outlook for life on the whole is bleak.

Abilities/Powers/Weaknesses & Warping:

Advanced weapon mastery
In-depth knowledge of the supernatural and how to counteract it e.g. exorcism
Excellent hand-to-hand combat

The Road So Far @ Deerington:

July 2020

Arrival
- Moved into 62 Shepherd Road, Flatwoods Point
- Trying to kill "Lucifer" led to him understanding that the Sam in Deerington is from another timeline, likely the same timeline as "past him" from 2009.
- Running into somebody who said she knew him enhanced his own paranoia, and his mind immediately jumped to the assumption that Skye was a demon. His world is overrun with them, and a lot of them like to say they know him just because he's Dean Winchester. He saw her use her powers for the first time against a "Robo Carebear" and told her to stay away from him

The Guilt Shadow
- He met a Castiel who still had angelic powers, something which was complicated due to Heaven and all angels having left his world to be decimated by Lucifer. His opinions on Heaven and angels were dire and they came close to coming to blows. Dean was purposely an asshole.
- Worked through guilt over killing the Cas from his world with Dana, Sam's girlfriend & gained his Dream Guide

Other
- Hunter for hire on the network - Mr Unpopular makes threats against supernatural type Sleepers. Argues with a bunch of people and is once again an asshole to Castiel.
- Skye stumbled across where he lives and he thought that she was following him which led to a tense stand-off.

August 2020

The Dome
- As the dome shatters over the town, Dean is caught outside and Castiel saves him from giant shards of falling glass.
- He and Castiel have their first conversation that doesn't end in an argument in the church

Lollipops & De-Ageing
- Ate a grape lollipop and was de-aged down to 16 for a few days
- Watched Castiel, who had become an amnesiac Dean nicknamed "Constantine", fall through the stairs in his house and die in the basement only to heal himself
- Survived a noise monster with Skye not knowing who she is
- After he had aged back up found Castiel and was trying to watch over him. Helped Cas put out a fire he started with his uncontrolled powers in the camp in Deerington park. Hung out with Cas trying not to say anything that would cause another surge of powers.
- His days spent without any memories of his life so far as a teenager allowed him to get back to his roots in a way he hasn't in years. When he aged back up again he retained all of the memories of being a teenager and how he felt when he was helping people in danger

September 2020

Fate
- Falls out with Castiel after some serious miscommunication. Dean comes to realize that he does want to keep hunting with Cas and wants him to stay in one piece. Castiel believes that Dean only cares about "Constantine" instead
- He finds out from Sam that the Colt doesn't work against Lucifer and that he dies trying to kill him which puts him into a depression spiral
- Eventually he tells Castiel what's due to happen to him when he goes home, but gets a motivational speech about finding his purpose here in Deerington. They end up watching The Thing at the Antler Drive-In together
- Dean starts working for F.E.A.R as a Weapons and Combat Specialist

October 2020

Cas from his world shows up in a bad way straight from being killed by Croats, a fate that Dean had sent him to. He thinks Cas is a shifter or a monster from the town. They make it back to Dean's house in Flatwoods Point and Dean patches him up. He's remorseful for sending Cas to his death but their conversation is tense and unfriendly
Dean finds out that the Sam he had just started trying to rebuild a relationship with has disappeared from the town, presumably back to his world and he knows that for Sam that means the Cage with Lucifer
He checks in on Castiel and lets him know that the Cas from his own world has shown up in the town
While out on a F.E.A.R mission with Skye in the Nightmare Frontier, they evade a Wendigo and almost escape, however they are pursued by a giant zombie dog and he crashes the Impala into a tree as they're barged off the road. In an effort to distract the zombie dog from killing Skye, Dean sacrifices himself and is killed at the same time he shoots the dog through the chest with The Colt
The Impala is brought back to the house after Dean has died by Peter Parker, arranged by Cas

November 2020

What's dead didn't stay dead
- Waking up after being gone for 8 days, Dean has to work through post-death flu and depression including suicide ideation
- Cas looks after him in a way that Dean's not used to and they have the opportunity to talk. Cas forgives him for sending him to his death, and Dean tells Cas that when he goes back to their world that he's going to fail and get killed by Lucifer anyway
- Checking in with a few people he cares about in town via the network, Skye pops over to see how Dean's doing and they talk about everything but his death.
- He contacts Castiel to check in and also to ask him something. Castiel is human and has to walk to Dean's house which is concerning for Dean given the Cas he knows isn't very good at taking care of himself. He asks Castiel whether he can knock him out so he doesn't have nightmares but as Castiel is powerless, Dean continues to suffer with dreams of Hell Hounds and dying
- Dean and Cas move to 301 Clover Lane in Clarke Acres
- He meets a younger version of himself in a cavern he'd left the house to explore after getting severe cabin fever. Finding out that this version of him is fresh from their 40-year stay in Hell, he watches "Mini Me" violently and brutally kill a spider monster that's been hunting them
- He finds Sam near the Hart Mart and it soon becomes clear that this is the Sam from his world. He lies to him and says he'll kill him back at the farm house with the Colt. He uses the holy oil he got in his blessings basket to trap Sam (and Lucifer) in the basement and only then gets to talk to Lucifer who he swears he'll end

Therapy & Balls
- After Sam returns back to the basement and relights the holy fire himself, Dean explains to Sam that he never knew he was still alive. That he's still his brother and that together they'll find a way to beat the devil
- Cas confesses to Dean that it was him who let Sam out of the panic room all those years ago, and Sam went on to release Lucifer because of it. Cas is high on pills and Dean hates it. They get into an argument and Dean leaves
- Dean finds out that Jack is Lucifer's son from older!Sam
- Exploring the fleshy sinkyhole with Cas, smacks Cas in the balls after a game of harness chicken, much laughter happens

December 2020